12 months of sobriety

One year! Yay. But it’s crazy man, this post has been stressing me out all day. What on earth to say? I mean, y’all have helped me along the way. I feel I can’t really say enough, to express the amount that I appreciate you much. Without y’all, it’s true, I doubt I could do, this growing-good thing we’ve accomplished. I love you wild, as such.

So I’m hugging the tree, as though you’re all here with me. Which in in my head is true, and fills me with glee.

Quite a few things have gotten better, for me.

In a word, though,

I feel I’ve blossomed in terms of…

Creativity.Β  βœ¨πŸŒ€ 🌻 πŸ’š 🌌

So thanks, to you and the Tree, for journeying all this way, with me.

Love,

xoxoxoΒ nadine/stl

ArtistUnknown-TreeOfLifeCreativity-(via-SobrietyTree.com)

 

(Image: Tree of Life… artist unknown…. manifested in part via the cosmic interwebs. ;))

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1 year sobriety from all except caffeine. 12 days digital refinement.

p.s. The kids and I had nine hours of no screen time/computers/phones/devices/etc.Β  *at all* this morning + early afternoon. It was horrible!!!!Β  (JK. It was only partly horrible. ;))Β  Hope you are all well. πŸ€—πŸ’›

 

52 thoughts on “12 months of sobriety

  1. You are my inspiration Nadine! A long way off from being where you are re drinking wine. I have a day off here and there or a couple of days off here and there but that’s about it just now. I once managed 6 months, and then went back. Why, I cannot even honestly say! That said, I want to be where you are now, one of these days. Your blog here is a beautiful thing! Thank you! You are a a Star shining brightly! Keep shining! Keep writing! Keep going! Sending you love and wishing you all that’s best in life! πŸ™‚ xoxoxo

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    1. Liola….. thank you. So very much. What a gift of a comment. This means the world to me, truly. It’s wonderful to have encouragement like this… it makes up for all the very challenging stuff. Big time. Thank you!!!!!
      I had many false starts too. But I just kept re-doing day 1 like you. Starting an anonymous (at first) sobriety blog was key for me… as you know I tried to do it via the other one, but it just didn’t work out. You might like to try something like that, too. (And maybe don’t tell anyone at first, if you do… that way, you can just be “you.” Through and through. :)) β˜€οΈ Hugs, and gratitude. πŸ€—πŸ’“πŸ‘―β€β™€οΈπŸ™

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    2. I’m approaching 5 months and I was wondering if at 6 mths I might try moderation. My husband asked me what a glass or two of wine would do to improve things this evening. I had to say, nothing at all! Good to read about others that stopped and wished they hadn’t. It’s important to hear both sides.
      Claire x

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      1. I thought the same when I got to 6 months. I started off on just a little here and there, and gradually was back at square one and having wine most nights for relaxation, boredom., stress, escapism, it’s been a hard day. etc, etc. All the things we tell ourselves. Keep going. You’re at 5 months now, and when you get to 6 months keep on going. Believe me I wish I had kept going instead of thinking just the one. One, more than often becomes two and so on. I wish you all the best on your journey. Trying to get into the right mind space again. I shall continue to be inspired by Nadine’s journey and hope to embark on a similar journey of my own in time. Blessed be! πŸ™‚ x

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        1. Ah thanks. Although I think I would be fine I know deep down that would not be the case. It’s addictive stuff and I’ve come so far. Your comment has really helped. Thanks so much xx

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          1. It’s wonderful that your husband is so supportive this way, Claire. I still have thoughts of doing the same sometimes. I’m actually relieved to be past one year since I sort of was waiting for that point to be able to have a drink if I wanted to. But now I find I don’t want to. I was sober for 4.5 months before, thought I’d have one glass on a special occasion; it turned into much the same as Liola describes above. Then same thing again for 50 days, same thing special occasion… but then back to old patterns. I’m keeping going for now, one day at a time, much like Monsy says below. It’s the best way, because I know I can *not* drink for one whole day, there is genuinely no attraction in it for me, except for fleeting moments (like if someone near me is drinking) that pass if I allow them to. I think it’s good we all talk about it openly. Thanks for your comments Claire (and Liola!!) xoxo

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            1. I agree it’s really important to talk about. Those moments do pass but they are tough when they happen. I miss sharing that time β€˜having a drink’ with my husband but that’s just silly because we still share the time, I gave AF wine instead! I know old patterns would begin again and they were patterns I’m glad to see the back of! So no, not for me right now xx

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  2. Yay! Congratulations, Nadine!
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    xo
    Wendy

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  3. Congratulations, Nadine! I wish you many more! You are truly creative and inspiring and I’m so glad I’ve been able to get to know you a bit through your blog. πŸ’•πŸ‘πŸ»

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  4. N, You are a strong, inspiring, hopeful, supportive and creative woman. Congrats on one freaking year!!! Keep on keepin on! I’m so grateful I logged on today to read this! It has absolutely made my day.
    Sending mega hugs and love to you and yours!!!!
    You deserve this. One day at a time adds up one day at a time. πŸ’–πŸ˜˜πŸ₯°πŸ˜»πŸ’—πŸ’œπŸŽ‰πŸ€—βœ¨πŸŽ‰πŸ’«πŸ₯°πŸ˜»πŸ€—πŸ€“

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    1. Thank you Monsy!!!!!!! I always love and appreciate your lovingness. Yes, one day at a time! xoxoxoxoxoxo πŸ₯°πŸ˜πŸ˜˜πŸ€©πŸ’—πŸ’–πŸŒ·πŸŒΏπŸ’–πŸŒ»

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  5. Rock n Rolla, my amazing beautiful friend! YOU did it…yaaaaaayyyyy!! So very proud of youπŸ€—. 1 year ago today you made a decision that would change your life forever by saying yes to

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      1. Thank you Dwight… you were one of the earliest folks kind enough to leave comments, which really kept me going. So I can say the same for you. You’re an inspiration to me, ’tis true. Hugs and thanks xoxoxo β€οΈπŸ€—

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  6. Well done Nadine. A whole year and you had a shit load of emotional challenges along the way so especially well done. Yours is a unique ,sweetly oblique voice on here and the tremors of your soul resonate and inspire many of us readers. Thanks
    Jim x

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    1. So many beautiful comments here… I would like to answer them all but I have to run to make lunch… but Jim, wow, you’ve got me teary-eyed before I even cut any onions! What a beautiful way you have with words… I’m so grateful for this amazing phrase or two… it reached my soul, that much is true. Thank you… and everyone else here, too. I could not have done this without all of you. ❀️

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  7. So awesome to read this, this morning! Congratulations!! You have always been such an inspiration to me from day 1! I’m so happy for you and all your hard work! I’m sending a HUGE hug and smile your way!!! β€οΈπŸ˜ƒβ€οΈπŸ˜ƒβ€οΈπŸ˜ƒπŸ₯° I wish I was closer and could bake you a celebration cake!! πŸŽ‚

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    1. Jackie you have been such a lovely support to me in return, truly. I appreciate it so much. Thank you for all your comments, commiserations, kind words, and personal stories… it’s been a two-way street, so huge gratitude to you. And I’m loving the cake in my mind, thank you. :))) πŸŽ‚πŸ˜ŠπŸ‘ŒπŸ™β€οΈ

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    1. Awwwww thank you Anne!!!! You’ve been so much fun to be around and read. I count myself lucky to have been able to regularly clink alcohol-free glasses with you on WP. Merci, et grosses bises, ma belle amie. ❀️xoxoxoxo

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        1. Ouai ouai tout va bien, vraiment. En fait j’adore la sobriΓ©tΓ©, de temps en temps je pense ah Γ§a sera bien d’avoir un verre avec les voisins encore un jour, mais en fait c’est pas l’alcool qui me manque. Donc je continue comme je suis, moi en pleine conscience (ou au moins, en pleine sobriΓ©tΓ©. ;)). xoxoxo bisous bisous gros calins.

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    1. Thank you, beautiful Bryan B. You were such a huge help to me, appearing out of the blog ether with your comment on that second post of mine (https://wordpress.com/read/blogs/160327092/posts/50), way back when. Looking back I see again that I replied so stiltedly, but that was because I was seriously overwhelmed with gratitude and didn’t know how to express it… in the early days, I felt particularly emotional and unsure, and it was a critical period. So thanks again for that, and for all the other work you do. You made a big difference for me, for sure; and I’m sure for many others you’ve helped as well. Hugs and love :)) xoxoxo

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