15:40 I am experiencing such social media dislike and anxiety right now. Do any of you ever get that?
It’s just over my own accounts, i.e. the one that my friends are linked to and also my “arty” account. (i.e. not sobrietytree – nobody knows me on that one. Funny, I put nearly zero effort into it and by day 3 it had over a hundred followers (and stays that way), while my meticulous art IG account only got past 100 after about 3 years!! Typical social media. What’s quick and easy is popular.
I feel like we’re all led to think that we have to be on social media to get anywhere in life (e.g. online portfolio, social proof, staying connected, keeping up with friends, bla bla bla) and yet it’s the exact opposite. Any of us would be way better off having an additional, free WordPress site (which we could later convert to paid if we want) where we post our art or other image blog, while not being bombarded with ads and subject to the distraction of all the irrelevant (to us, personally) input.
Today I was such a sucker! I clicked on an ad for how to sell your art online quickly and easily. Long story short I actually watched the webinar till near the end, where of course the designer (now business person) offered their course “valued at $5285 for only $597”!!! I have already been down that kind of road twice and actually paid the money (though thankfully it was much less), so at least I wasn’t even tempted this time. I mean of course I was expecting a sale at the end, but $600 for some digital media “kits”?
I also got Fumiko’s facial exercise class (lol) but at least that was only €17 and she did do a great job of it. Do I do it? Of course not! It’s such a hassle to log into these things! I just stretch out my face a lot in the car now while I’m driving. Or watch similar vids on youtube.
Anyway, all this to say that I am fed the eff up with the time drain! It starts out all artistic and connective and then I try to post something by finger-typing into that itty bitty little text field (you can’t post from desktop, another thing I despise about Instagram, and of course it’s designed that way, it’s basically meant to be digital device pocket-heroin) and adding the right daft hashtags and tags and whatnots and then it’s all for nothing in the end. It’s a really, really lame use of time.
So basically, here on Day 43, I am still loving my sobriety from booze and smokes and so grateful for it. But I am planning on figuring out my social media issues next. I’m not going to make any big promises, because that’s how I failed my sobriety the first real try, but I will express the fact that I want to read the much-touted book by Cal Newport, on Digital Minimalism (I LOVED his book Deep Work, and actually read the whole thing, ADD-afflicted reader though I am), but I’m still trying to get through the rest of This Naked Mind, which is also a great book. I have this reminder set “read 10 pages” — it’s at the top of my desktop screen, right now — but guess what? It’s easier to scroll social media instead and nearly get suckered into $597 pipe dreams on sale from $5285!
Some of my favourite author celebrities are on Insta though. I also like to get my news and politics filtered through them (many of them are pacifist political activists).
HEY!!! I have an idea. What if I just used my sobrietytree account to follow those? Then I am not tempted to do weird posts promoting my favourite authors (or myself) from that account since it would be off-topic and irrelevant. Yes, I’m irrelevant, and hoping to become more so! Hmm, that would be a great final instagram post, “Happy to be IRRELEVANT.” (You see how this goes… I’m hopeless.)
That’s fascinating actually — that I feel no pressure to do IG well, on that sobriety IG account; only pressure to do it well on the ones where “IRL” (and non-sober) people know me. Most sober people rock. There is a kind of unconditional love that goes around, or at least that’s what it seems like. There’s also a lot of sober-people targeting by sobriety merch marketers.
And I don’t do Instagram well. I do it awfully. I am clueless and I try way too hard. (I’m Gen X so there ya go.)
Let’s get real, Self. You really want to “look good” under your own name. That is your issue. It’s all about effing appearances and giving far too many F’s what others think!!!
Okay off to read my 10 pages now.
Oh yeah and do some actual work?
Right. Work. The actual thing that pays the bills. Not Instagram.
hope your day is going well
me with the tree