In addition to these, from my Day 33 post, I’d like to mention these:
- Having an anonymous, sobriety-focussed blog. The early days especially were satisfying.
- Keeping track of the days. Days of sobriety feel like building blocks, or laying stones at the base of a future lighthouse tower. Just like days of building any kind of habit, it has felt satisfying, this time around, at least, to keep stacking them up. My last 50-day stint, by the way, which I referred to in my Day 33 post (linked above), I had no idea what day I was on. I only counted them after the fact of having broken the chain. My first really long stint, begun last year around this time, I wasn’t counting days either, but then, I was completely in the pink cloud, through working the 12 steps in my journal, and had no need of day-counting. Till I promptly fell right off that cloud (by stopping my 12 steps work). I do have a sobriety app, it’s called “I Am Sober” but I rarely check it. The way I have been keeping track of days is through this blog. Funny, hey? Come to think of it maybe I should turn notifications on that app.
- I haven’t been hanging out with anyone who drinks, except my husband, and he’s only here on weekends.
- A bit of daily exercise. Key to my mental health.
- Self-acceptance, self-acceptance, self-acceptance. I’m not accomplishing great things. I’m just staying sober. I don’t always feel great about that but I keep remembering to cut myself some slack. And I try not to play the comparison game. “Comparison is the thief of joy.” There are so many sober queens out there rocking the world, sometimes I wonder how they do it all. And then I think, let them do their thing and I’ll do mine. Which is at this moment just lying in bed.
I wish I could send lots of love right now but I’m feeling a little low. So all I can do is say, I hope you enjoy your day.